Struggling

The last time I posted, I promised to update this blog more often.  I have a confession to make.  I only feel inspired to blog if I can show my best self through that post.  I don't want to show my weaknesses, my stumbling blocks and my humanity.  Because, online, I can be super-human if I so choose!

But instead I'm going to be honest.  I'm struggling.  My competition was almost 3 weeks ago and I haven't been back to the gym, or even had a single day of halfway decent eating habits.  I'm drinking a beer as I type this.

The week after my competition, someone I know commented on my belly, riding out over my derby shorts, so soon after my 6-pack of competition day.  I laughed it off and responded with jokes about trying to make up for lost time and gaining as much weight as humanly possibly now that I was allowed to eat, but it still hurt.

I know I need to get back on track, but I'm a little lost as to what exactly I want to do now.  I'm back into roller derby full-force, but I need to figure something else out to work towards.  A new workout program isn't all that helpful to me without an end goal.  And that's what I'm struggling with.  I still haven't made up my mind for sure if I want to get pregnant right away again or wait awhile.

While I ponder what to do next, I will leave you with a picture from my very first roller derby game this last weekend.

Results

Well, it's been over a year since I started this blog.  I finally entered my first bodybuilding competition, just 2 days before my baby's first birthday.

Although I'm excited about what I've accomplished in the last year, I still have many challenges ahead of me.  We're planning on having another baby, so I'll be going through this all over again!

The biggest challenge for me in the baby weight loss journey is actually during the pregnancy itself.  I have a hard time wrapping my head around gaining weight no matter what I eat (I know I'm supposed to, but still!).

Here is a better before and after with the dates involved.  Pretty good for a year's work!

I am going to start posting at least weekly, and I hope to see a few people to share this new adventure with.